For as long as I can remember I have taken my wishes very seriously. Whether I was blowing out the candles on my birthday cake or tossing a penny into a fountain I would pause, close my eyes and imagine the very best possible outcome for whatever was weighing heavily on my heart.
A decade ago I stood before the Western Wall and stuffed a note into a crevice of ancient Jerusalem stone and wished for my Great Grandmother to feel loved and less alone than I knew she felt. She lived a second lifetime without her husband, a man who died before I was born and I felt her heartbreak my entire life.
As a young girl, I blew out candles on my birthday cakes year after year and wished for my mom to stumble across a pile of money so that her daily struggles might be lightened.
And I will admit to many a coin being tossed in the hope of a certain boy to notice me so that we might live happily ever after. A sixth grade love story.
Now, when I catch myself wishing or even wanting, it is always for peace. Peace of mind for myself. Anxiety is my constant companion. A peaceful heart for my daughter. Frustration and intense emotions take her far away on too many days. A peaceful way for all of us. It's a profoundly better way than the alternative.
Estelle has become one of my very dearest friends. Simply put, I adore her. We get each other, and we both love champagne...so really, life is good under a pink moon. And one of her many talents includes sewing, the girl turns a piece of fabric into a coveted fashion piece. Trust me, I'm in line for one of her divine creations and hoping she opens a shop soon!
[image via Estelle]
Oh Mel,
ReplyDeleteI have been the same all of my life. I really, really do believe that my wishes will come true and was always disappointed if I didn't get the right end of the wishbone or blow all of my candles out in one go ( that would be very hard now as I have too many !!!! haha )
I think that you have been the kindest and most loving soul all of your life and I just know that all of your wishes will come true.
Next time I get the opportunity to wish, mine will be for you. Much love. XXXX
Thank you for having Stella here. I love reading her words. Stel,I can't wait to see you in a few weeks. We are so on the same page lately. Peace and calm have been a theme for me lately. I need constatnt reminding that I need to stop, slow down and create peace and calm in my world. Great post. Xo
ReplyDeletetoday estelle gave me a sweet gift of peace with her writing... and, mel, you gave me peace with the delivery of such a kind gem. bless both of you with a peace-inspired return of this blessing today. -xok.
ReplyDeleteThis is such a wonderful post. I also wish for peace, the older I get the less I want and the more I ask for just peace. I am so happy Melissa created this series. It's been an inspiring ride.
ReplyDeleteEstelle, I get this. I often find myself praying for peace. Particularly as my son enters adolescence I find myself in constant anxiety.
ReplyDeleteMel, these guests posts are wonderful. I've met the best bloggers through them. Thanks for sharing.
this was beautifully written...
ReplyDeleteI couldn't agree more. I think everything else falls into place when you can find peace within yourself. It has become my mantra (I use the word shanty..learned from my yoga class). I used to wish for better eating habits and less stress and so many other things until i realized that all comes with finding peace within.
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-Morgan (Born of the Sea)
Born of the Sea <---this is my little blog
Oh Estelle, I just love the idea of wishing for peace. And I can relate so well to your childhood wishes. What a beautiful post.
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Tina
loved this. calmed me down. xoxo.
ReplyDeleteLovely, and I adore the story about your great grandmother. what compassion you have.
ReplyDeleteSuch a lovely story!!! Thank you for sharing Estelle with us all! xoxox
ReplyDeleteMel, thanks for having me here this week. It felt so good to share this little bit of myself here and I really appreciate all the kind comments.
ReplyDeleteWhat a great guest post from a beautiful blog.
ReplyDeleteShe has such a way with words. I can relate so often to her words, which makes them even more touching and personally profound.
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